The city lights shine so bright,
Never fading, ever awake,
And yet how many solitary hearts wander, lost in its plight,
Looking for a place to belong in its wake?
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Ticket Stubs
I should keep count of the number of movies I watched alone in KL, just to show myself what an independent young lady I am =p
Lone ticket stubs to date : 3
Lone ticket stubs to date : 3
Fairy Tale Love
Everyone dreams of a fairy tale love.
I can say that I wish I had a fairy tale love, that after years of being with my one and only, we have decided to settle down happily ever after, in typical fairy tale style.
I can say that, but then I'd be lying.
It is never easy when a relationship ends, I don't think it is possible to have invested time and energy into a relationship and not harbour at least some images and dreams of your future together.I have seen my dreams taking a slight detour twice and ending reality-style, as opposed to fairy-tale stye, but I do not regret it. The time and energy poured into those relationships at that point in time was given with sincerity and hope, and I would not have done it any differently had I known how it would have eventually ended.
At the same time, it is easy to wish that the next relationship comes with a gurantee that it will work, and easy for the heart to set up barriers and protection to make you hurt less. But does love have to be safe to be good? And even if it is so, shouldn't the "safe-ness" come naturally from two person's faith in each other, and not because you set up walls to numb the pain?
I believe love, in all its forms, fairy-tale or otherwise, is beautiful. Fairy tale endings are great, but only if it was a great story in the first place ;)
I can say that I wish I had a fairy tale love, that after years of being with my one and only, we have decided to settle down happily ever after, in typical fairy tale style.
I can say that, but then I'd be lying.
It is never easy when a relationship ends, I don't think it is possible to have invested time and energy into a relationship and not harbour at least some images and dreams of your future together.I have seen my dreams taking a slight detour twice and ending reality-style, as opposed to fairy-tale stye, but I do not regret it. The time and energy poured into those relationships at that point in time was given with sincerity and hope, and I would not have done it any differently had I known how it would have eventually ended.
At the same time, it is easy to wish that the next relationship comes with a gurantee that it will work, and easy for the heart to set up barriers and protection to make you hurt less. But does love have to be safe to be good? And even if it is so, shouldn't the "safe-ness" come naturally from two person's faith in each other, and not because you set up walls to numb the pain?
I believe love, in all its forms, fairy-tale or otherwise, is beautiful. Fairy tale endings are great, but only if it was a great story in the first place ;)
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Two Weeks and Counting
Two weeks and counting in my new place, I still feel somewhat out of sorts.
Work-wise, everything feels so new and I'm still struggling to catch up...it's a bit disheartening at times, it is as if what I have learnt and achieved in the past 3 years plus holds no relevance in the new place :( New people, new jargons, new tasks...I feel so overwhelmed by it all. I've been told to relax and it is normal to be clueless in the beginning, but I suppose the perfectionist voice in me can't really take this helpless and "not knowing" feeling. I have to consciously remind myself that when i first started out in this company I felt the same way, and things will eventually get better.
Home-wise, I still face "settling-in" challenges =p As of now I am sitting in a living room with no lights :( The living room lights at the place I am renting went out within a few days of moving in, and the landlord has yet to send in the technician to help. The water heater is also not working, and I also seem to be having slight problems with the gas stove. I think my parents will freak out if they knew but I don't tell them because I don't want them to worry....with that said, I DO like my new place :) It's having some teething problems at the moment, but I love that it is my own private space, and everyday I fill it up with things that makes it more and more Jess :)
Pray that all will be ok soon, and that I will survive this tide of change in my life with a smile on my face and soul intact ;)
Work-wise, everything feels so new and I'm still struggling to catch up...it's a bit disheartening at times, it is as if what I have learnt and achieved in the past 3 years plus holds no relevance in the new place :( New people, new jargons, new tasks...I feel so overwhelmed by it all. I've been told to relax and it is normal to be clueless in the beginning, but I suppose the perfectionist voice in me can't really take this helpless and "not knowing" feeling. I have to consciously remind myself that when i first started out in this company I felt the same way, and things will eventually get better.
Home-wise, I still face "settling-in" challenges =p As of now I am sitting in a living room with no lights :( The living room lights at the place I am renting went out within a few days of moving in, and the landlord has yet to send in the technician to help. The water heater is also not working, and I also seem to be having slight problems with the gas stove. I think my parents will freak out if they knew but I don't tell them because I don't want them to worry....with that said, I DO like my new place :) It's having some teething problems at the moment, but I love that it is my own private space, and everyday I fill it up with things that makes it more and more Jess :)
Pray that all will be ok soon, and that I will survive this tide of change in my life with a smile on my face and soul intact ;)
Friday, January 8, 2010
Didn't We Agree that there is Only One God?
Here are my simple thoughts on the current issue a-brewing in our own beautiful 1Malaysia. Pray I do not get arrested for posting this up =p
If one religion says there is only one God, and the other religion says there is only one God, won't simple logic tell you that, it is the same, one and only God? So what's the problem with calling him the same name?
I understand the concern if the publication is by some unknown occult or "ajaran sesat", and you do not want to have God's name associated in any way with any deviant teachings, but this a religious group as old and as respected as any, with billions of believers across the globe.
Are they so concerned that followers of the other faith will be confused with such usage? And that such confusion will result in deviant practices or even worse, conversion? Please. I think they have to give their followers more credit than that.
All I'm saying is that, I don't think God is exclusive to any religious groups, even if they are the majority. If you go back to the essence of any religion, it is about respect, it is about love, and it is about YOUR faith. I sincerely do not think God (who is only one) will agree over these petty fights.
If one religion says there is only one God, and the other religion says there is only one God, won't simple logic tell you that, it is the same, one and only God? So what's the problem with calling him the same name?
I understand the concern if the publication is by some unknown occult or "ajaran sesat", and you do not want to have God's name associated in any way with any deviant teachings, but this a religious group as old and as respected as any, with billions of believers across the globe.
Are they so concerned that followers of the other faith will be confused with such usage? And that such confusion will result in deviant practices or even worse, conversion? Please. I think they have to give their followers more credit than that.
All I'm saying is that, I don't think God is exclusive to any religious groups, even if they are the majority. If you go back to the essence of any religion, it is about respect, it is about love, and it is about YOUR faith. I sincerely do not think God (who is only one) will agree over these petty fights.
Saturday, October 31, 2009
The Age
27 is the age of Doubt.
You have your so called "dream job", being a working professional who earns enough to enjoy the little luxuries in life, and yet there are some part of you that still feels empty, unfulfilled.
I thought I was alone in feeling this, but turns out 2 of my dearest friends (fellow 27-ers ;)) also feels the same way. We have achieved what the 4 years ago us would have thought the epitome of success, and yet...we feel, strangely detached from it all sometimes.
Yuk Mee says, maybe that's why humans have to constantly grow and seek for something better, while Own Chai just wishes that all of us, who have ever felt this emptiness, have the courage to let go of the familiar and just live your dream, whatever that may be.
I say, and hope, that the imminent move to KL in my 27th year, might not be such a bad thing after all...
You have your so called "dream job", being a working professional who earns enough to enjoy the little luxuries in life, and yet there are some part of you that still feels empty, unfulfilled.
I thought I was alone in feeling this, but turns out 2 of my dearest friends (fellow 27-ers ;)) also feels the same way. We have achieved what the 4 years ago us would have thought the epitome of success, and yet...we feel, strangely detached from it all sometimes.
Yuk Mee says, maybe that's why humans have to constantly grow and seek for something better, while Own Chai just wishes that all of us, who have ever felt this emptiness, have the courage to let go of the familiar and just live your dream, whatever that may be.
I say, and hope, that the imminent move to KL in my 27th year, might not be such a bad thing after all...
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Why Turning Older Isn't So Bad After All...=p
Some of the perks of turning 27 ;)
A bouquet of fresh Red Roses sent to the office....
A lil' Pinky Baby to match the pink lappie...
A new arrival White Hearts bag from AliceWonders.com :)
My own Little Miss baby Tee :)
...and countless other birthday wishes, SMS hugs, Facebook Wall scribbles, free meals and cakes from loved ones...thank you all for remembering and giving me something to smile about in the midst of the performance review madness...:)
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